I looked everywhere but still could not find. I’ve searched the world over, wondering if it was all in my mind.

I sat on a bench and waited patiently. I knelt by my bed and prayed for what could be.

The one constant thing is that you have my heart.  The sad part about it is I don’t know where to start.

I’ve heard of all the things you do.  When I find you, I will see if it’s true.

When I wasn’t looking, it is then you crossed my path. You made me smile again, taught me how to laugh.

Now that I know you are out there, I’m really curious. I want to know all about you, make it just the two of us.

“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference…”

True change comes from within, therefore, we can not dictate or force someone to change.  Often times the things we want to change in others is the very thing we need to change within ourselves.  My honest belief is that the only way I can change those around me is to change myself.

“Be the change that you wish to see in the world.” ~Gandhi

“You don’t know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have”~Unknown

This week a young lady told me her house was broken into twice this month, two friends died this week and her best friend got robbed at a red light.  She could not concentrate on any one task for too long and found it hard to sit still.  She complained about not needing to be at work and wanting to just cry all day.  I saw a story about a woman who contracted a flesh-eating disease earlier this month and has had her leg, a foot and both hands amputated.  She is reported to be in high spirits and responded “Lets do this” when told about her amputations.  Her father says every breath she takes is a gift, she sat up for 5 hours when doctors only expected about an hour out of her hospital bed.  Not to make light of either situation but the reactions are very different in comparison.  Throughout life you will experience trials, heartache, and loss.  Your reaction is what determines your outcome.  Life can give you a thousand reasons to throw in the towel, many reasons to walk away and many more to give up on life itself.  These times are when you find out things about yourself you may have never known. “If you think your problems are big, listen to someone else’s and you will see yours are small in comparison”.

My chorus for today: “Found hope in my heart, I found the light to light my way out of the dark.  Found all that I need, here inside of me.  I thought I’d never find my way, I thought I’d never lift that weight, I thought I would break.  I didn’t know my own strength and I crashed down, and I tumbled but I did not crumble.  I got through all the pain, I didn’t know my own strength…”~Whitney Houston

As the journey continues, the little things that we get too busy to notice are beginning to be the most important.  The things that have caused grief in the past are now laughable moments.  I’m thankful that  everything  in life doesn’t happen just like I want it to.  Throughout my journey, I have lived, loved , and laughed truly without limits.  As time goes on I will start my new venture and meet new people but I am grateful that my past has been so richly blessed with everything I need to succeed.  The journey never stops, I say chapters end so new ones may begin.  Season change and growth takes place.  Although my life has drastically changed in the past 20 days, I know it only gets better from here!!!  As my Uncle Frank would say “My God will provide”.

My chorus for today: “Every time I fall, He answers my call.  Picks me up, dusts me off and tells me to start over.  When I’m weak, He’s my strength, I really don’t deserve it, But again and again and again and again.  Oh I’m grateful, truly grateful, for Your continuous grace.”~Smokie Norful

With elevation, comes separation…

Remember to “give God a praise for those who walked out of your life”~ Tera Hodges

My chorus for today: “Pull the plug, don’t resuscitate. Let it die quick, no drugs. Rather pain than lies, we will agree. We both disagree, so let’s agree, let’s be free.~ Chrisette Michele

The choice is yours…

There are some decisions you make that you never take a second look at, then there are those that you ponder over for hours, days, and weeks.  I love the fact that, the choice is mine.  No one can force me to do anything.  The struggle comes from the division within you.  There is the person you are and the person you want to become.  Everyday you must determine who will lead.

No one was born or woke up one day being exactly who they are destined to be.  My advice is:  live your truth everyday.  You won’t always make the right decision, you won’t always say the right words but you will always be genuine.  Your truth is your story line, it is being honest with how you feel , what you think and what you want to accomplish.  I know that the most important thing I have to do is, be myself.  If I conform to the image that the world would like to see then I have not become the person I was destined to be.

There is no definite time in which someone should discover themselves.  It could take some people 40 or 50 years to get to know themselves and find their purpose.  It’s a personal journey and no one can dictate where you are on this journey.

My chorus for today: “I’ve seen it, done it, ran it, run it.  Been to the bottom and I came back from it. That’ll be the pain in the pit of my stomach, don’t regret a thing just keep it 100.  I been the drama and the bad news, I been the struggle and the damn blues.  Shed tears over silliness,  seen love blow up as real as it really gets…Rain starts pouring and it don’t stop.  Let myself drown no I will not, smile on my pretty mug, I get right back on my horse and I giddy up…”~Chrisette Michele

Never miss the lessons in life.  Every thing you go through is designed to assist you on your journey.

My chorus for today: “In each tear , there’s a lesson.  Makes you wiser than before, makes you stronger than you know.  Each tear brings you closer to your dreams.  No mistake, no heartbreak, can take away what your meant to be…”~Mary J. Blige

Life’s riches are not measured by material possessions…

I’m wealthy because my riches are stored up in relationships.  Those who deposit love, knowledge, wisdom, and time have ensured that I will never go broke.  As you go through life, you learn to spend more time appreciating the positive people in your life and ignoring the negative ones.  Those who deposit negativity have a purpose in your life but you should never reserve them a place.  The power of prayer can turn a negative into a positive so, keep praying and keep moving.

My chorus for today: “Count on me through thick and thin, a friendship that will never end. When you are weak, I will be strong.  Helping you to carry on.  Call on me, I will be there.  Don’t be afraid, please believe me when I say count on….”~Waiting to Exhale

My circle rocks!!!

My chorus for today:  “The struggles I’m facing, the chances I’m taking.  Sometimes might knock me down, but no I’m not breaking.  I may not know it, but these are the moments that I’m gonna remember most.  I’ve just gotta keep goin’ and I gotta be strong.  Just keep pushing on…”~Miley Cyrus

There are times in life when we have to realize, sometimes there just is no more…

Every good thing doesn’t have to come to an end but some good things are only meant to last a little while.  Just as leaves fall from a tree, moments come and go.  Those same leaves were once beautiful but they had to die so new ones could grow.  This goes for jobs, people and places.  On Day 5 of my journey, I realize there is peace with progress.  When you realize that one season has ended you must embrace the new one and every thing it will bring you.  I believe in change and I know you have to make sacrifices in order to progress.  Starting from scratch gives you a blank canvas and every color in the rainbow is at your finger tips.

My chorus for today: “Staring at the blank page before you.  Open up the dirty window, let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find.  Reaching for something in the distance, so close you can almost taste it.  Release your inhibitions, feel the rain on your skin…”~Natasha Bedingfield