Like many of you, I tuned in to watch the Bobby Brown Story, for many different reasons (I have not read

his book).  First and foremost, I wanted to see Bobby Brown’s life through the eyes of Bobby Brown.  I have read articles and seen stories told from the perspective of an onlooker BUT nothing beats a first hand account of a story.

Listen…by the end of day 2, I saw a piece of all of our lives in Uncle Bobby’s story.  I saw a life full of highs and lows.  I saw heartache, pain, and a man that has had to pick up the pieces and start over again and again. I saw someone that has loved and lost.  Someone that was full of life and wanted to enjoy every moment.

If you watched the series and picked through to determine which parts you choose to believe then you wasted your time.  We all go through trials and tribulations so that we can help others to see that there is victory on the other side.  Each part of the story built upon and expanded to another area of his life.  In the end, he is the sum total of every experience and a work in progress, still striving to get better.

I am grateful that Uncle Bobby brought HIStory to television and gave the world deeper insight into his life.  The story is told from HIS prospective and the wonderful thing about you telling your story is that no one gets to tell you what happened to you.

Be courageous enough to tell YOUR story.  The world is waiting.

I recently had an epiphany…many years ago, I was a side chick.  Now, I know the realization sounds a little shocking.  You may be asking questions like; how could you not know that you were a side chick?  Well, the answer is that I did not care enough at the time to think about it.

How does that happen???  Kinda like this…I was focused.  Focused on what I wanted. I was the boss of me.  He was a welcomed distraction but not enough of a distraction for me to realize all the moments he was an afterthought or a fill-in-the blank.  Now I am not giving him a pass and I do not promote cheating.  What I am saying is that I totally missed the process of changing from the object of his affection to the second place chick.

The story went something like this…we met under somewhat strange circumstances and we became almost inseparable.  In the beginning we talked all day, everyday, even while we were at work(shout out to Bluetooth technology) and then we talked until we went to sleep at night.  We also saw each other several times a week, at different time intervals.

At some point, I guess he grew tired of my unavailability/unwillingness to be who he needed and began to fill-in-the blank.  To be honest, I am certain that she was in the picture all along and I was quite possibly the fill-in-the blank BUT this is a tale about balance, not resolving the question of why he had the desire for two women.

So, back to my point…One night while we were together, he excused himself to answer a call.  He did not walk away or try to hide the fact that a female was calling.  When he hung up, I told him that was disrespectful or something to that effect.  He clearly responded that “if I was on my job, he would not be answering the phone.”

After this incident, I began to pull away from him and seek I wanted in my life(remember I am the boss of me).  I remember him questioning me about the distance and of course my answer was that I was busy.  Eventually, I told him that I started a new relationship and he confessed that he realized that he was in love with me.  The problem was that we had both run out of time.  There was nothing that he could say to repair our situationship, I did not trust him anymore. The good news is that we both went on to live our happily ever after eventually.

You see in life we put so many things before ourselves and our relationships all under the goal of looking out for ourselves( see how that does not add up).  Often times we think that we can push things to the side while we work our plan but we cannot control time nor add time when it is lost.  In order to achieve what we really want and need in life, we must find balance.  We have to be wives to OUR husbands, mothers to our children, girlfriends to OUR boyfriends, a friend to our friends and fulfill our positions at work,  all at the same time. All these roles require our attention and a certain level of devotion.  I believe that this is achieved when we prioritize our roles.  Ask yourself what is really important and adjust accordingly.

“He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh  from the beginning to the end.”~Eccl. 3:11

God has already told you certain things would occur in your life but because they have not happened, you have lost focus on the promise.

There was a time in my life that I started to grow weary in a promise God made to me.  I began to think was that God or did I tell myself that.  Sometimes we get discouraged by what we see and forget what God has spoken.  I was in church during Holy Week last year and the preacher said, “like a quarterback throwing passes to his receiver, you have to be in position to get your blessings.  God keeps throwing your blessing to you but you are not in place.  If you do not get in position, someone else is going to receive what God is trying to do for you.”  It was time to go where God was sending me.  God said be quiet because they won’t understand.  I did not have a major plan, I did what God instructed me to do.    He said don’t tell everybody because you don’t need their mouths on this.  People who care about you will always try to advise you as to what is best for you but when God is speaking, no other voice/opinion needs to be heard.  The moment I got to my destination, God sent confirmation that I was in the right place.  He sent an acceptance letter that I had been waiting two years to receive.  He was waiting for me to trust what He was doing in my life.  I had to experience growing pains to receive the promise.  God still had some things He had to work on.

Trust the Process because God’s promises shall be fulfilled, follow His instruction to receive the promises, and remember this is not about you, God wants the glory.

Chorus for today: “Sometimes you feel so alone, like a child lost with no home.  They keep telling you to be strong, but you say when will it end?  When will I win?  Just know He has His hands on you.”~Marvin Sapp

Trust and believe that God is always in control.  Allow Him to order your steps and watch God move.  Today was everything I thought it would be and more.  I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster.  My eyes are swollen, my voice is strained and my body is tired. In my new season God has stepped in and showed me, if I make one step, He’ll make two.

I’m running…..

My chorus for today is: “You’ve been qualified, by his mercy multiplied.  You cannot be denied, cuz you’re finally certified. It’s official, go ahead and testify. He’s gone bless you, you gone bless me, now God be glorified.”~Mary Mary